I've decided to give my job another chance after i saw my first pay check. Wednesday night i had a nervous break down because i felt so much pressure and stress with being a cashier i felt like i couldn't handle it. I wanted to quit. But the next day i went in with a bad mood and the outcome of the night was pretty good. For once i actually had fun working. I think that's what made me want to stay. Well, between having fun and my pay check. I've learned that you're going to have good days and you're going to have bad days, that the customers aren't always nice and easy to talk to, and that i have to keep in mind that every Thursday when i get my pay check, it's all worth it.

Monday is my birthday and it doesn't feel like it. I'm not celebrating it this year so i guess that could be why. I feel like people are forgetting that it's my birthday and i don't like that feeling very much. I wish i was five again so i could get tons of presents and all of them would be toys. But i'm not a little girl anymore and that makes me want to cry. I don't wanna grow up.

I also have been feeling like i'm drifting away from all of my close/best friends and i don't like that feeling very much either. I guess that's what happens when you get older. You learn what it is that you want and sometimes you and your friends aren't compatible anymore. It's sad but it's the way life goes and i guess i have to accept that. I hate losing friends. but not as much as i hate growing up.