I'm probably not going to write in here for a longggggg time. i think i'm going to make another one though, but it's only going to be of my writing. like stories, poems or whatever i write. i think it would be more interesting then this. seriously.

I WANT TO GO TO BOSTON.



i don't know why but i've been having that feeling you get when you want to experience something new for a while. I need a break from this town and these faces. I need something new and something i haven't seen before. I need to experience a different town with different faces.

I’m starting to crave new beginnings

brighter memories, and

happy endings...









I crave change.

I always push people away. Because if i let myself get attached to them then i will only get my hopes up and i'll eventually get hurt. That's how it goes usually. But what happens when the person you tried to push away wouldn't freaking go anywhere?

Marry me Juliet, You'll never have to be alone...

I wish i could change myself. Have a different personality. Because who i am is not who i want to be. I don't want to be afraid to be in a relationship. I don't want to be afraid of taking chances. I'm sick of being afraid of everything. I feel like I'm in a freaking bubble and it just doesn't pop. I hate when i have those really high points once every other month and i feel like i can do everything and anything. I feel really infinite at that moment but then it goes away for awhile. I hate it so much. I feel like I'm a really weird person and I'm hiding from who i really am. I guess i can never be happy? I feel alone like no one could possibly understand my thoughts or feelings. I mean who could blame ya? I'm a very peculiar person.


once again this wasn't worth your time.

the phillies won.
i think that cole hamels is pretty cute :)
too bad he's married though, ugh.


work was good tonight. a few people made my day :)
i got my paycheck and i'm actually content with working there now.

i'm currently confused and don't know what to do.

now i'm gonna go and eat my dinner.

peace.

It's just like starting over.

I'm in need of a change. MAJORLY. I want new clothes, new friends, new hair color and new practically everything. I'm sick of the same old shit. The clothes that are just thrown around in my closet that i NEVER wear. The "friends" who say they will always be there one day but then the next they fuck you over. my hair is gross looking. it's about a thousand different colors and makes me look blah. some guy came into work and said that my hair compliments my face. THAT'S when i decided i want to cut my hair off and dye it a different color. what a creeper he was.

I just want a fresh new start.